Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Christmas Hope

We has it.



The other day I went shopping for an ornament to give as a gift to a sweet friend of mine and I found three Christmas words - Peace, Joy and Hope.  I bought Joy for my friend and, even though we have way too many ornaments already, I bought Hope for us. Which was surprisingly similar to what happened when Eileen and her DH went shopping. I hung Hope on our tree and I've spent far too long gazing at it wondering if I will show it to our baby next Christmas and say "that's your first Christmas ornament - just especially for you" ... or if I will be unpacking it next Christmas wistfully and sadly instead.

I wonder if all of us in the IF community have Hope strung up on our trees. If not the word itself, then the feeling - wrapped around the Christmas tree and all muddled up with Christmas Spirit. The hope that this will be the last Christmas without that family member we're trying for.

This time I have told everyone, and I mean everyone, about our embryo transfer and our testing date. I want all the positive thoughts, prayers, sticky vibes and good wishes we can get. I hope it helps.

Today I am 4dp2dt and I have been a bit crampy since Sunday. I think it's because of the Pregnyl-induced progesterone rise I must be having. If all is going well then Twinkle and Blobby (or at least one of them) have/has successfully hatched and are/is preparing to implant into my uterine lining.

7 comments:

  1. What a great thought that we all have hope on our tree this year. I know that I do. The thought of that ornament being your baby's first brought tears to my eyes. Stcky vibes to you!

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  2. I have hope too. Hope for good news for you and hope for a wonderful Christmas, this year and next and many more to come. You are in my thoughts xxx

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  3. Read not into the pregnancy symptoms, for they will confuse thee.

    Sadly, hope is not in residence in Casa C von S this Navidad, but I am fervently praying to all the higher powers that you get a nice fat positive HPT followed but a bhcg in the hundreds on Christmas eve.

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  4. So hoping that these are the little embies that can, and that Joy and Peace are also there for you this Christmas...

    :)

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  5. No....I do not have a Christmas ornament that reads HOPE but I have that engraved on a pendant, and I totally get your feeling.

    I want the miracles to happen...sending lots of good wishes to the two embabies....

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  6. I so hope you get a most excellent Christmas BFP!!!

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  7. I'm keeping my fingers, toes, and anything else I can find crossed that you get your Christmas BFP. What a wonderful gift that would be!

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