Monday, September 14, 2009

My eyes hurt from crying

Crap crap crap crap crap times infinity.

Follicle report - day 8 of stimming...
On my left side I have 1 x 18mm and 2 x 12mm.
On my right side I have either 1 x 16mm or 2 x 14mm (she couldn't tell if it was one larger, or two with one in front of the other).

Fuckdamn. That's completely fucked and I feel like I'm living July all over again.

At this stage last time I had a 16mm, a 15mm and an 11mm.
This time I have 4, maybe 5 follicles and my right ovary woke up.
Last time I stimmed for another 3 days and collected the eggs 4 days after that scan - only the 16 and the 15 had good eggs.
This time the nurse thinks that I will stim for another 5 days which will most likely over-ripen the 18mm and the 16 if it's a 16.

Best case is that the 16 is actually 2 x 14's and they and the 2 x 12's ripen up nicely and I get 4 eggs.

But they are all such different sizes. I may only get 1 usable egg.

I hate this.

Edited to add: I'm triggering on Wednesday for a pickup on Friday. The decision has been based on the biggest follicle. I hope the littlies catch up and have mature eggs in them by Friday. Must remember that they grow by 1-2mm per day so I can get a maximum 8mm more growth.That would be enough for those 12mm follicles, surely?


  1. Just hang tight on this crazy ridiculous rollercoaster ride! Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

  2. Fvck.

    I know you wanted this to go very differently, but I'm not giving up hope for you yet!

    Grow, follies, grow! Come on nice, beautiful eggs!

    You might not be able to look forward, but I'll do it for you...


  3. I'm sorry! But the fat lady aint sung yet on this cycle so hang in there, try and stay positive. I'll be watching....

  4. Oh MAAAAATE. Thinking of you so much, and really really hoping for you on Wednesday.

    It sucks ... the roller coaster. Sux dogs balls. Bad.


  5. Oh your commenters made me laugh but this does suck dog balls. indeed.
    I hate not knowing any dang thing until, until, until we find out-- It is great you are stimming well, and yes at least some of those littles will catch up and be ok and
    I will be keeping my fingers crossed for you!
    This seems better than july in terms of number and all that does is increase your chances.

    GOOD LUCK and keep breathing, this is so friggin hard.


  6. Oh Sheesh! This is like a roller coaster that not many people would like to ride...hope the little ones catch up...

    All the very very very best!

  7. Hugggss. Hang on tight. Hoping wednesday gives best case scenario results.

  8. I always heard it sucked donkey balls, but dog balls are pretty bad. I am going through the same shit now; this cycle with all new drugs and a new protocol has thus far shown little improvement over the last. But we have to remember, we only need 1 or 2 good eggs to fertilize to make this happen. It's a numbers game for sure, but in the end it's quality over quantity that works. Stay calm! Don't panic!

  9. I am sending you lots of positive thoughts right now. You can get more growth by Friday for sure. I know it sucks but try to stay calm and remember you could be growing your future baby right now! Grow follies grow!!

  10. Coming late to the party, but I don't think it's so bad at all!

    Sending you ultra light, positive vibes for EPU today.

  11. IVF babies born from embryos that are frozen and thawed are less likely to be underweight or premature than those conceived during fresh treatment cycles, research has shown.


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