Two follicles but Just One Egg.
Beside me as I sat waiting to get taken into theatre:
- Lady A, in for a pick-up with 20 follicles
- Lady B, in for a termination
I woke up from the anaesthetic, looked at the circled 1 written on my hand and burst into tears. Then I cried for the next hour and a half. The nurses were very kind and let the Big Guy, my rock, come in after a while when it was obvious that I wasn't going to stop crying any time soon.
Someone will call me tomorrow between 1-3pm to let me know whether we're going for a transfer on Sunday. I hope, with all my sad little heart, that they say we have an embryo to transfer and then that I don't get a call on Sunday morning cancelling it.
It isn't fair. It isn't remotely fair. I don't think the most outlandish writer could come up with a recovery room scenario less fair than that one - I'm sorry. It would have made me scream for more anesthesia.
ReplyDeleteBut I am hoping for that one. I am thinking such good thoughts for the one. For it to be THE ONE.
You are in my thoughts and prayers! I never retrieve many eggs either and know exactly how it feels to wake up only to be in tears for hours later. I will pray and pray that your little eggie is going to make it and you wake up in 9 months with a beautfil baby in your arms!
ReplyDeletePS- my word verification is "lisful" which somehow seems appropriate for this comment.
It's super unfair. I am heartbroken for you and with Adele here hoping that this is the eggie will be the bean to go full beanstalk. I am crying with you tonight and sending you all sorts of love tonight and want you to know that you are foremost in my thoughts and prayers here.
ReplyDeleteI am here pulling for you and share your tears. It's your time here.
I will be thinking of you and sending all good energy your way this weekend. I so, so, so hope that eggie is the one! Try to get some rest and take care of yourself. This process takes such a horrid toll in every way. Be well.
ReplyDeleteIt is most unfair indeed.
ReplyDeleteI will be sending all my positive vibes to the one so that it turns into THE ONE.
A big hug to you.
And a chocolate cupcake.
Oh oh OH. It's not FAIR.
ReplyDeleteF*cken hell. Wishing all the love and luck for your eggie, Pundelina.
Sweet lovely lady ..... if I were there in front of you I'd give you the biggest hug right now.
XOX
I'm so, so sorry. It really isn't fair at all.
ReplyDeleteOh, wow, I'm so very sorry about this result. Ridiculously unfair--like you need a slap in the face with your devastating news. I too will focus all my good thoughts on that egg.
ReplyDeleteLife is not fair. It sucks. I am sorry. I am pulling for you and your egg. Again, I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteRooting with all my might for that resilient egg...
ReplyDeleteAw, MAN! I had hoped for a nice big number. But here's hoping it's the eggie that could!
ReplyDeleteHoping with all my heart that you have a transfer on Sunday. Lots and lots of hugs!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this. Hoping with all my might that you have a transfer on Sunday.
ReplyDeleteI'm hoping hard that your 1 egg makes a grade A embryo-- and I'm sorry that things haven't worked out better do far. I know it is trite to say that all you need is one, but I do think it is worth holding on to that shred of hope for now. Who knows?
ReplyDeleteI found your blog through the TwelveGrapes blog, and wanted to let you know that people you don't know (like me!) are wishing you good luck....and that this egg turns out to be The One!
ReplyDeleteIt only takes one. I'm crossing my fingers and thinking about you. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteBeing in a similar situation myself, I know that the words "it only takes one" are little consolation.
ReplyDeleteBut it only takes one. Best of luck tomorrow!
It's hell...meeting a lady sitting for a selective reduction outside the doctor's chamber on the appointment before my ER, and sharing the post-op room with a lady whose pregnancy (achieved through IVF) was an ectopic one...are impressions I still carry around....
ReplyDeletelife is not fair.