Saturday, May 22, 2010

It's my birthday and I'll cry if I want to

So there.

The Big Guy was very kind to me this morning. I turned 38 and woke up cross and cranky and weepy.  Chronologically my body is 38, mentally I'm about 28 and my reproductive system is about 48. Aarrgghh. This is the third birthday I've spent TTC and it's going to be the last one. I'm over it. I'm over beating my head against the brick wall of my prematurely aging ovaries.

The clinic has agreed to do a cycle for us irrespective of my FSH level - so when my period arrives I'll get busy jabbing. We'll do a flare cycle and hope to God it works.

16 comments:

  1. Happy birthday... and I'm sorry.... and, happy birthday, well I hope you do have a lovely day despite all you mentioned. Thinking of you, go drink some expensive wine!

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  2. Well, Happy Birthday! I know you are cranked out...but I am going to sing a happy song to your ovaries to give in, dammit!

    Hope this cycle is suuuuuccesssful!

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  3. Happy birthday, you very brave girl. I hope it brings you some joy. AND CAKE. And I am delighted to learn you get a cycle regardless--I can't imagine the stress of waiting to find out.

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  4. Happy Birthday! Say yes to some lovely wine and hopefully there is delicious cake involved. I never look forward to stupid bitrthdays, but getting cake is pretty sweet. I'll imagine that your 28-year-old inner self will get to influence those reproductive bits to be youthful. I hoping that you have a lovely day with pleasant surprises.

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  5. Happy birthday! And good news that your doctor will cycle with you. Keep the hope alive!

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  6. I hope this cycle brings you a much wanted birthday present. Sorry to hear it's making you blue. I totally understand, but we're all celebrating for you!

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  7. Happy Birthday, PK! I hope the year to come is an excellent one, and that it brings you the best possible things (and, ahem, universe? I think we're all agreed on what THOSE are).

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  8. Happy birthday to yoooohoooo, Pretty Thang ;) Hope it's a good one! Live in the moment! ;)

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  9. Happy birthday, Pundy! Hope the day brought you lots of goodness!

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  10. Happy birthday to yoooooouuuuu....

    I'm glad you get another shot, and this cycle had better be the one...big birthday hug!

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  11. Happy Birthday! We must be twins with Secondary IF to boot. Happy Day, I second the comment. By next birthday!

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  12. Happy birhtday. I hope you were able to enjoy it.

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  13. Happy Birthday, hon. Much joy and cake and wine for you on this day. You deserve some good old fashioned birthday pampering. :)

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  14. A very Happy Birthday to you, my dear.

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  15. Happy (belated) birthday!

    And I am thrilled to hear that you plan to forge ahead with IVF.

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